Sober

I don’t abuse things, not in the sense of having to go to a meeting or anything. I just have this overwhelming feeling of a couple of things.

I’m addicted to social media, and while it doesn’t put my life in danger, it corrupts my ability to create and takes up far more time than I have to spare. I have alternate ways to make sure my creations get to my readers/listeners via those sites or otherwise, so I will use those instead.
I’m addicted to sugar. Not how I used to be, I still don’t drink soda that often anymore (that was my main drug). But going through a bag of Candy Corn in two days, and having a RedBull 5 out of 7 days is not ideal.
The to-and-fro of the 24 hour news cycle and the debates it stirs up is too much for my emotions to handle. Too much noise about nothing at all, or too much nothing at all about really important things, neither of which truly informs me or triggers my happiness.
I can live a perfectly happy life without alcohol. At this point in my life, it’s just something tasty to do on occasion, a little treat to compliment a meal. The door has always been open for me to step through and become dependent, but thankfully I’ve avoided that completely and it’s just not peaking my interest any more. Maybe one day I will come back to this, in minute responsible ways, but for now I’m actively saying “no thanks, I’ll just have _______”.

So today, since a Facebook post an hour ago, I am sober. After I post this, I’m going to take my kid to bed, take a shower with the lights off so I can meditate, and come back to my laptop and start writing again. Or pick up my camera and take pictures again. Or record a podcast, or work on music I’ve had sitting in the wings for ages, or finally compile jokes I’ve written for stand-up that I will finally start doing soon.

TLDR: I’m dropping the things that take time and precious energy away and don’t give anything back, and I’m kicking my brain back into “create mode”, where I am the most happy.

Still feel free to follow my FB Page/Twitter/Instagram, as my content will still post there. Or keep an eye out for my Newsletter, coming soon, so I can send stuff straight to your inbox.

Peace and love be with you, always.

-B.K. Mullen

AKA: Starkillerface